My struggle with restrictive anorexia

I can remember being a lot younger and starting to develop a fear of food. I thought that if I could control what I ate maybe it would lead to controlling certain areas of my life. As time went on this idea started to become stronger, and I started restricting what I ate until eventually I was hardly eating anything at all.

At first the weight loss made me feel proud. All around me people were noticing that I was getting skinnier, and so my anorexia became something I flaunted – something that was seen as impressive in certain circles. It wasn’t until the physical effects truly kicked in that people around me began to take notice and question what was happening.

It has been a difficult journey since then. With the help of professionals, family and friends, I have been learning how to go back into the real world and relearn how to eat like a normal person again. Small steps are key – introducing foods gradually; changing habits; developing new relationship with food etc etc. It is very hard but still something that is achievable if you’re willing to put the effort in.

Recovering from anorexia has been one of the hardest and most rewarding journeys of my life so far, however, it isn’t something you ever fully “conquer” - recovery is an ongoing process no matter how long you have been dealing with the issue for. Despite difficulties facing me day-to-day, by taking things one meal at a time, I know will be able to overcome this obstacle.

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Hey, I can totally relate to what you’re going through. I struggled with anorexia for a long time, and like you, I thought that controlling my food intake would give me some sort of control in my life. It’s crazy how it can start off as something small and then snowball into something much bigger. I also felt proud of the weight loss at first, and it took a while for people to realize that something was really wrong. But hey, kudos to you for seeking help and working on recovery. It’s not easy, but it’s worth it. I’ve been learning to reestablish a healthy relationship with food too, and you’re right - it’s all about taking things one meal at a time. Hang in there, and remember that you’re not alone in this. Stay strong, my friend.