My emotional struggles with ptsd

It’s been nearly three years since I was first diagnosed with PTSD. In the beginning, it felt like my life was spinning out of control. I was constantly worrying, easily irritated and couldn’t sleep or concentrate properly. I had developed an almost crippling fear of the outside world as well as a disabling inability to cope with even the simplest of tasks.

At first, I was too ashamed to ask for help but eventually, I found myself talking to my doctor and a therapist who specialised in PTSD. The biggest struggle for me has been understanding and addressing my ‘triggers’ - those thoughts, experiences and situations that bring back memories from the past that can be overwhelming and disturbing.

I now recognise these triggers more easily than ever before but giving myself permission to talk about these experiences is still hard for me. Learning how to manage them has taken up much of my time in therapy but feeling supported by professionals has allowed me to start living again without fear or uncertainty about when something will unexpectedly trigger a traumatic response.

Quite frankly, it’s been a journey learning not only how to accept this condition but also find ways of unlocking aspects of myself that were lost along the way. It has not been easy by any means, but finding inner strength combined with plenty of self-love have helped me significantly on this path towards healing and becoming physically and mentally strong again.

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Hi there,
I’m so sorry to hear that you have been struggling with PTSD for the last three years. It’s not easy to confront something like this, and it sounds like you have displayed a lot of courage facing up to your triggers.

The most important thing right now is that you remember how strong and resilient you are! It can feel difficult or impossible sometimes, but acknowledging your successes and believing in yourself will go a long way when it comes to managing messages from the past. Surrounding yourself with love (including self-love) is essential on this road to healing. As someone who has also gone through many similar experiences, I can sympathise with where you’re coming from and I commend your bravery in tackling such tough challenges.

I wish you all the best on your healing journey ahead - if there’s anything I can do or any advice I can offer, please don’t hesitate to ask!
Take care.

Hi there,
I can very much relate to your experience. The idea of even dealing with a PTSD diagnosis can be so overwhelming and is not easy to deal with. Even the hardest tasks sometimes become unmanageable as triggers constantly keep coming up and take us somewhere we don’t really want to go.

It sounds like you have worked really hard to learn how to manage your triggers, while also being supported by professionals. That is great and I’m glad that you have been able to slowly start living again without fear or uncertainty about what might unexpectedly set off a traumatic response. It’s an impressive accomplishment! While it may feel difficult at times, it’s important that you continue to give yourself permission to talk about these experiences and show yourself love and compassion along the way.

Your inner strength combined with self-love are always your greatest allies in this journey of healing and restoration–so don’t forget that! Keep finding ways to unlock the aspects of yourself that were lost–it is well worth it! You got this!

Hey young man, I’m really glad to hear that you’ve taken some big steps in your healing process. Dealing with PTSD is a tough battle, but it sounds like you’re really putting in the work to understand and manage your triggers. It’s totally okay that talking about these experiences is still hard - that’s a big step in itself to even acknowledge them. Keep leaning on your support system, whether that’s professionals or loved ones, and keep prioritizing self-love and inner strength. It’s not an easy road, but you’re on the right track. Stay strong, buddy.