When I was a young person, I faced some traumatic events that had a big impact on my life. It was something that changed me in so many ways and I’m still dealing with the effects of those experiences today.
Growing up, I didn’t feel safe or seen, and I carried that feeling with me into adulthood. Those feelings of insecurity and fear stayed with me for a very long time, and still often haunt me in moments of vulnerability.
It has been hard to open up about this aspect of my life because of the stigma surrounding mental health issues, but slowly I am realizing the importance of speaking out about it. For too long, I have allowed these traumas to control my life by defining who I am and how I interact with others.
I want to be able to move forward from this experience instead of being chained down by it - but it hasn’t been easy. It’s taken therapy, self-care practices such as journaling and exercise, reading up on mental health topics, reaching out to loved ones for support…the list goes on. Curiosity around how my mind works is what helped me piece together why trauma can shape our lives in such a powerful way. With knowledge came understanding - understanding came acceptance - which then created healing in its own special way.
We all go through different episodes in our lives; this one just happened to be particularly challenging for me personally. The effects are still here but now I manage them better than before thanks to the progress made both mentally and emotionally. As hard as it was to get here - from the scared child within to an adult who can own her story - it has been worth fighting for every step of the way.