My bipolar journey

I spend a lot of my life feeling out of control, like my emotions are constantly jumping from one extreme to another. Each morning I wake up with a sense of dread because I never know what kind of day I’m going to have. Some days can be so smooth that it almost feels strange and other days can be so chaotic that it makes me feel lost and confused. Over the years, I’ve learned that I’m living with bipolar disorder.

For a long time, I wasn’t sure what was wrong or why things felt so off sometimes but once an official diagnosis was made, it was like a light switch had been turned on inside me. Suddenly everything made sense and even though all the emotions still felt overwhelming at times, now I could begin to make sense of them and take steps towards learning how to cope and manage them better.

That was more than a year ago now, and in that time I’ve had both ups and downs but overall I feel like my mental health is really improving. Through therapy, medication, lifestyle changes, creative outlets and self-care activities, I’m gradually starting to recognise triggers for when an episode might come on and how best to help reduce its intensity if possible. This isn’t something that has been easy for me but taking charge of my own recovery process helps me stay focused on creating positive long-term change in my life instead getting consumed by all the daily struggles. It’s certainly been a challenging journey but through hard work, dedication and lots of resilience; I feel hopeful about the journey ahead.


I completely relate to feeling out of control and not knowing what kind of day you’re going to have. That can be really overwhelming and scary, so I’m glad you finally got an official diagnosis that was a light switch moment for you. It takes so much courage and strength to take control of your own recovery process and make positive changes in your life, and it’s inspiring that you’ve been able to do it despite the daily struggles. Your story is motivation for all of us - keep up the hard work, keep being resilient and don’t forget how much progress you have already made!

I hear you about feeling out of control and worrying about what kind of day you’ll have every morning. I know how difficult it can be to not understand why you feel the way you do – I’ve definitely been there before! Learning that you have bipolar disorder must have been such a relief, and it sounds like since then you’ve really taken charge of your journey in managing the condition so well! It’s amazing how much progress you’ve made with therapy, medication and other methods of support. It certainly isn’t easy to take on, but it’s great that you’re focused on positive long-term changes and maintaining resilience throughout those struggles. Well done for all that hard work!