When my little one was born, I was filled with so much joy that nothing else mattered. But as the weeks and months went by, it became harder for me to find joy in anything.
I started having flashbacks of my labor and delivery; they would come out of nowhere and terrify me. I’d be stuck reliving a part of that experience all over again, and it was terrifying every single time.
I tried to brush these symptoms off for a while - after all, I had more important things to focus on than myself. But soon enough, I knew that what I was feeling was something more than exhaustion or anxiety: it was post traumatic stress from my pregnancy and birth experience.
It’s been a long road since then - but I’m so grateful that I finally got the help that I needed. With help from my loved ones and therapy sessions, I’m finally learning how to cope with posttraumatic stress in a healthier way. It’s been incredible to have support throughout this process - which makes such a difference!
The biggest thing is not letting these emotions take control of my life: by riding through each wave with self-compassion, and reminding myself of the progress that I’ve made even when things feel like there’s no hope left. It has been hard but such a rewarding journey and everyone going through something similar deserves loving support too!