Life hasn’t always been easy for me. Over the past few years, I have had to deal with the struggles of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and Depression. It has been an incredibly challenging experience.
The symptoms of BPD can be so overwhelming at times and there seems to be no way of getting rid of them. Anger, guilt, shame, sadness, fear - these emotions feel like they’re constantly riding on my shoulders. It feels like my mind is filled with the voices of all these negative emotions, and no matter how much I try to shut them out or pretend like they don’t exist, they keep coming back in full force.
Depression has also been a constant struggle for me during this journey. The exhausting feeling that nothing will ever be good enough or make me happy is something that’s difficult to put into words. Nothing seems to bring me joy and it’s hard to find the motivation or energy that most people seem to posses.
Despite all this, I am learning how to cope with the mental health issues I face every day. Through therapy and finding new hobbies, I am taking steps towards being kinder and gentler with myself and choosing activities that are both beneficial for my wellbeing and bring me happiness. Instead of focusing on what life isn’t giving me, I am trying to focus on working those things into my life by taking small steps every day until eventually over time they add up into something more significant.
This journey isn’t easy but it is possible! If you’re struggling too – never give up on yourself; you are stronger than your mental illness!.