Life hasn’t always been easy for me. Over the past few years, I have had to deal with the struggles of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and Depression. It has been an incredibly challenging experience.
The symptoms of BPD can be so overwhelming at times and there seems to be no way of getting rid of them. Anger, guilt, shame, sadness, fear - these emotions feel like they’re constantly riding on my shoulders. It feels like my mind is filled with the voices of all these negative emotions, and no matter how much I try to shut them out or pretend like they don’t exist, they keep coming back in full force.
Depression has also been a constant struggle for me during this journey. The exhausting feeling that nothing will ever be good enough or make me happy is something that’s difficult to put into words. Nothing seems to bring me joy and it’s hard to find the motivation or energy that most people seem to posses.
Despite all this, I am learning how to cope with the mental health issues I face every day. Through therapy and finding new hobbies, I am taking steps towards being kinder and gentler with myself and choosing activities that are both beneficial for my wellbeing and bring me happiness. Instead of focusing on what life isn’t giving me, I am trying to focus on working those things into my life by taking small steps every day until eventually over time they add up into something more significant.
This journey isn’t easy but it is possible! If you’re struggling too – never give up on yourself; you are stronger than your mental illness!.
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Hey there,
I am so sorry to hear you’ve been going through such a tough time with BPD and depression. I know it can be incredibly difficult to cope with the symptoms, especially when it feels like they are constantly holding you back from living life. But as someone who is 43 years old and has also been on this journey myself for a few years, I want to encourage you by saying that it IS possible to get through this. You may not feel it now, but you do have the skills and strength within you to make progress towards feeling better.
It’s important to remember that taking small steps each day can have huge benefits over time. Even if nothing seems simple and nothing brings joy right now, try not to focus on everything you think life should give you and instead look for positive things in the present moment—things that will be beneficial for your wellbeing even if only in some small way. With therapy, pursuing hobbies, self-care and surrounding yourself with people who understand what you’re going through—you will eventually learn how to manage these mental health problems better and build a life where your feelings of worthiness don’t rely on them.
Never forget: You ARE strong enoughtook take control of your own life
Hey, I can relate to what you’re going through. Dealing with BPD and depression can feel like an uphill battle, but it’s great to hear that you’re finding ways to cope and take care of yourself. Therapy and finding new hobbies are huge steps in the right direction. I’ve found that focusing on small, achievable goals each day helps me feel a sense of accomplishment and progress, even when things seem tough. It’s also important to remember that it’s okay to have bad days and to be gentle with yourself. You’re absolutely right - never give up on yourself. You’re stronger than the mental illnesses you face, and you’re making positive steps towards a healthier, happier life.
Hey man, I just want to say that I really admire your strength in dealing with BPD and depression. I can’t imagine how tough it must be to have those emotions constantly weighing on you. It’s awesome to hear that you’re taking steps towards coping and finding happiness. Therapy and new hobbies sound like great ways to work through things. And your attitude of focusing on what you can add to your life instead of what you feel is lacking is really inspiring. Keep being kind and gentle with yourself, and keep taking those small steps every day. You’re absolutely right - you are stronger than your mental illness. Stay strong, brother.