I never thought that my life would be this way - I didn’t realize what was happening until well into adulthood. It started slowly, getting worse over time - gradually losing interest in hobbies and activities, feeling oddly disconnected from friends and family. And then one night, I had an episode - wildly fluctuating between two completely different states of mind.
It was terrifying to not know what was happening or why it was happening. I knew something wasn’t right, but couldn’t figure out what it was until someone told me about bipolar disorder - a mental illness where you cycle between extreme highs and lows.
I’ve been living with bipolar disorder ever since, and it hasn’t been easy. People can often mistake my mood swings as rudeness or just being moody, instead of recognizing that these changes are actually part of a larger health issue. It’s important for me to stay cautious in managing my manic episodes and depressive bouts so I stay healthier for longer periods of time. Medication has helped me stabilize some of my reactions to certain situations, although I still experience moments where the world feels like it’s spinning out of control around me.
Mental health isn’t something that many people openly talk about—it can be awkward and uncomfortable—but sharing my story is a small but powerful way for me to normalize the conversation around mental health issues like bipolar disorder. Getting the help you need shouldn’t be something we feel ashamed or embarrassed about—it’s something we should all feel empowered by.