I can really relate to what you’re going through. Those sudden waves of anxiety can feel so disorienting, especially when everything seems fine just moments before. I remember a similar experience at a gathering a while back—one minute, I was in the moment, enjoying good company, and then it felt like I was hit by a freight train of anxiety. It’s such a frustrating feeling, and I totally understand the isolation that you mentioned.
It sounds like you’re really putting in the effort to recognize and manage those feelings, which is huge. I’ve found that grounding techniques can really help to bring you back to the moment. Sometimes, I’ll focus on my surroundings—the little things, like the texture of something in my hand or the sounds around me. It helps create a sort of anchor during those chaotic moments.
As for self-compassion, I think it’s such an essential part of this process. It took me a long time to realize that it’s okay to feel anxious and that acknowledging those feelings doesn’t make me weak. In fact, it’s quite the opposite; it’s a sign of strength to be able to recognize and sit with your emotions, even the uncomfortable ones. Allowing yourself that grace can make a big difference.
I’ve also found that journaling about my experiences has been helpful. It gives me a space to reflect on what I’m feeling and sometimes even identify potential triggers. I’m curious if you’ve tried that, or if there are other strategies you