It’s fascinating how something like orthorexia can fly under the radar when we talk about eating disorders. For a while, I didn’t even know it had an official name or that it was recognized in the DSM-5. I stumbled upon the term during a late-night internet deep dive, and it struck a chord with me. It really made me reflect on my own relationship with food—and honestly, it wasn’t a pretty picture.
I used to be super strict about what I ate. Like, “only organic, no processed foods, and definitely no sugar” strict. At first, I thought I was just being healthy, and there’s nothing wrong with wanting to eat well, right? But then it started to feel less like a lifestyle choice and more like an obsession. I found myself constantly checking labels, calculating nutrients, and feeling anxious if I didn’t have access to my “safe” foods. It became exhausting.
What’s interesting is how orthorexia isn’t just about the food itself but the mental space it occupies. I remember feeling a sense of superiority over my friends who didn’t share my strict eating habits. It was like my identity was tied to being the “healthy” one. I think that’s what hit me hardest when I learned about it—how it sometimes feels like I’m in a competition with myself, and I can never quite win.
The DSM-5 mentions things like “rigid adherence to a diet” and “preoccupation with food quality,” which really resonated with me. It made me realize that I wasn’t just being health-conscious; I was trapped in a cycle of rules that ultimately left me feeling isolated. I mean, how can you enjoy a meal with friends when you’re obsessing over every ingredient?
Now, I’m actively working on finding a balance. I’m learning that it’s okay to indulge sometimes, and that food can be a source of joy rather than a battleground. I still have my moments where that old mindset creeps in, but I’m trying to challenge it. I think conversations about these experiences are so important—like, have any of you dealt with something similar? It’d be great to hear your thoughts or insights on how you navigate the complex relationship with food.