I’ve been reflecting on something that’s been a part of my life for quite some time now: the experience of having an OCD obsession with a specific person. It’s a bit of a tangled web of emotions, thoughts, and behaviors that can feel overwhelming at times.
What I’ve noticed is that this obsession often feels less about the person themselves and more about the way they make me feel—or the ideal version of what I think our relationship could be. It’s almost like my mind gets caught up in a loop, replaying thoughts and scenarios, and it can be exhausting. I find myself analyzing every interaction, trying to interpret their words and actions, which only adds to my anxiety.
There are moments when I catch myself daydreaming about how things could be, imagining different outcomes and conversations. It’s like being stuck in a movie that I can’t turn off. I think the irony is that while I might be deeply focused on this person, I often feel disconnected from reality, as if I’m living in my own bubble rather than engaging with the world around me.
I’ve come to realize that this kind of obsession can really distort my perception. It can be isolating, making it hard to reach out to friends or family for support. Sometimes, I even hesitate to talk about it because I worry they won’t understand or will think I’m being silly. But the truth is, these feelings are very real and can take a toll on my mental well-being.
Recently, I’ve tried to work on recognizing when these obsessive thoughts start creeping in. One technique that’s helped me is reframing my thoughts—asking myself questions like, “Is this thought realistic?” or “What evidence do I have to support this?” It’s not easy, and I often slip back into those patterns, but even small moments of awareness feel like progress.
I’d love to hear from others who might relate. Have you ever found yourself fixated on someone in this way? How did you cope with those feelings? It can be a tough journey, but sharing experiences can sometimes lighten the load.