This caught my attention since I’ve been reflecting a lot on my relationship with shopping, which is pretty complex. For a long time, I didn’t realize that my compulsions around shopping were actually tied to my OCD. It feels like there’s this relentless tug-of-war in my mind—part of me wants to shop simply for the thrill of it, while another part urges me to buy things to alleviate anxiety.
I remember a particularly vivid experience: I was in a department store, and I could feel that familiar rush of excitement. The bright lights, the endless rows of products—it felt almost euphoric. But then, as I filled my cart, panic set in. I found myself grabbing items I didn’t even need, almost as if I was trying to fill a void. In those moments, it’s like I’m trying to find control in a world that often feels chaotic.
Looking back, I realize how often I’d use shopping as a coping mechanism. If I was feeling overwhelmed, a quick trip to the mall could momentarily distract me. But the relief was always temporary. Afterward, I’d feel that familiar weight of guilt and anxiety creeping back in, especially when I’d look at my overflowing closet and realize how much I’d spent on things that ultimately brought me little joy.
Interestingly, I’ve started to approach this issue differently by setting small challenges for myself. For example, I’ve been working on a “30-day no-buy” challenge. It’s not just about saving money; it’s really about breaking the cycle and learning to sit with those uncomfortable feelings instead of running away to the nearest store. Admittedly, there are days when it feels impossible, and I catch myself daydreaming about what I could buy instead. But it’s also been enlightening to recognize that sometimes, it’s okay to feel uncomfortable.
I’m curious if anyone else has navigated something similar. What strategies have you found helpful when you feel that urge to shop but know it’s tied to something deeper? I think it’s important for us to share our experiences and learn from each other.