I’ve been thinking a lot about my journey with depression and bipolar disorder lately. It’s such a rollercoaster ride, isn’t it? One minute I’m on top of the world, feeling like I can conquer anything, and the next, I’m in this deep, dark pit that seems impossible to climb out of.
There was a time when I thought I was just being overly dramatic. Like, I’d hear people say, “Just think positively!” as if that would magically change everything. If only it were that simple, right? I’ve learned that it’s not just about the ups and downs; it’s more about how I navigate those fluctuations.
The highs can be exhilarating, like I’m bursting with creativity and energy. I’ll start a million projects, make grand plans, and feel invincible. But it’s like they sneak up on me, and before I know it, the lows hit. When that happens, I struggle to get out of bed, let alone tackle any of those projects I was so excited about. It’s frustrating and confusing, and sometimes I feel like I’m playing a game that has no rules.
Talking to my therapist has been a lifesaver. I remember one session when she reminded me that it’s okay to just ride the waves. It’s something I wish I could share with everyone who feels the same way! Yeah, it’s tough, and it takes time, but it’s also a part of who I am. I’ve learned to embrace my quirks and the way my mind works, even when it feels chaotic.
I’ve also found it helps to keep a journal. Writing about my feelings has become a way to process what’s going on in my head. Sometimes I’ll look back and see patterns or triggers that I didn’t catch in real-time. It’s almost like I’m having a conversation with myself, and that can be so grounding.
I’d love to hear from others who are navigating similar experiences. How do you cope when the lows hit? What strategies have you found helpful? It’s such a complex journey, and I think sharing our stories can really help us feel less alone.