As a 37-year-old man dealing with ptsd and the experience of childbirth, I have found myself struggling with overwhelming emotions and memories. The joy of becoming a father was quickly overshadowed by the trauma of witnessing my partner go through a difficult childbirth. The experience triggered intense feelings of fear and anxiety, and I have been struggling to cope with the aftermath. However, I have begun seeking help and support through therapy and support groups. I have come to realize that I am not alone in my struggle, and there are others who understand what I am going through. I am learning to manage my symptoms and find ways to heal from the trauma. I am hopeful that with time and support, I will be able to fully embrace the joys of fatherhood and find peace within myself.